Contemplations.

You would think that being invited for an interview for a really good nonprofit organization in NYC, the mother of all cities, would be something to make you ecstatic. After all, once you graduate college, this is just the kind of opportunity you’re looking for; a chance to move to the big city and kick start your life… 

Well I find myself sick to my stomach over the whole idea. It’s a city far away from my family and friends. And it starts before my lease I up. Not only that, but I have to manage to scrounge up the funds to get myself to New York for a one day interview when I’m already going later next month just for fun. Only problem is, there is not one interview day available during the time that I plan to be there.

I’ve have been wanting nothing more than to move to that city for about a year now. But I don’t think I’m ready. The hardest part for me is coming to terms with the fact that I would have to leave my loved ones behind. I can’t do that. Sure, I know a few people up in that area, and I’m sure I’d make new friends too… But, I have a great family that I’d probably never see, were I to move up there now, with no money, and I have an amazing boyfriend who I love more than anything. I couldn’t stand the thought of having to go every day without seeing him.

I’ve been told that you can’t let things like that hold you back. But I think that while a great career is extremely important, happiness still outweighs it. They say, happiness is the key to success. How can I be successful, if I’m not happy? That is the question.

Merry Christmas

Is today really Christmas Eve? Already? That's insane.
That being said, Merry Christmas everyone! I hope your holidays are full of hope, love and happiness. May the arguing be minimal and the harmony be plentiful.

Being that its Christmas, I supposed I can take today and tomorrow off from the job hunt. Take a step back from my resume, stop writing cover letters, postpone looking for new places to apply, and stop checking my e-mail like a crazy person...

Just for the net couple of days anyway :)

Happy Holidays!

The End of One Count Down and the Beginning of Another.

So it's finally over. 17 long years of formal education have finally ceased... for now anyway. we shall see if I return.

Graduated on Friday the 9th. It wasn't very exciting. Well at least not until I walked across the stage. Everything prior to that was almost unreal. It didn't feel like graduation even though I was sitting there with 1000 other students dressed in cap and gown, ready to take on the world. But then, the second I stepped on that stage, it was like everything else just disappeared. nothing existed except for me and that stage in my one moment of realization; I was graduating college. It was amazing and totally worth the entire two hours of boring-ness that I had to sit through.

And now, here I stand, a college graduate -- jobless and broke...

Now I just have to decide, do I want to stay in Tampa where I will probably have to continue busting my butt as a waitress while I hope to find work. Or do I want to try and find a job wherever I can? ... Undecided.

For now, I'll just hope for the best... Welcome to real life.

College Graduate.

I'm done. It's official. I finished my last class on Monday and received my passing grade of an A- yesterday. Now all that's left to do is walk, which I will be doing on Friday, one week from today at 9 o'clock in the morning.
I'm unbelievable excited :D

I'm looking forward to taking most of the month of December as a vacation. Then, in January, the job hunt begins :)

Until then, I collected my last check from the spa today, and I will be picking up shifts like crazy at beef's until the 8th.

Photo shoot on Sunday :) Yay.