Contemplations.

You would think that being invited for an interview for a really good nonprofit organization in NYC, the mother of all cities, would be something to make you ecstatic. After all, once you graduate college, this is just the kind of opportunity you’re looking for; a chance to move to the big city and kick start your life… 

Well I find myself sick to my stomach over the whole idea. It’s a city far away from my family and friends. And it starts before my lease I up. Not only that, but I have to manage to scrounge up the funds to get myself to New York for a one day interview when I’m already going later next month just for fun. Only problem is, there is not one interview day available during the time that I plan to be there.

I’ve have been wanting nothing more than to move to that city for about a year now. But I don’t think I’m ready. The hardest part for me is coming to terms with the fact that I would have to leave my loved ones behind. I can’t do that. Sure, I know a few people up in that area, and I’m sure I’d make new friends too… But, I have a great family that I’d probably never see, were I to move up there now, with no money, and I have an amazing boyfriend who I love more than anything. I couldn’t stand the thought of having to go every day without seeing him.

I’ve been told that you can’t let things like that hold you back. But I think that while a great career is extremely important, happiness still outweighs it. They say, happiness is the key to success. How can I be successful, if I’m not happy? That is the question.

Merry Christmas

Is today really Christmas Eve? Already? That's insane.
That being said, Merry Christmas everyone! I hope your holidays are full of hope, love and happiness. May the arguing be minimal and the harmony be plentiful.

Being that its Christmas, I supposed I can take today and tomorrow off from the job hunt. Take a step back from my resume, stop writing cover letters, postpone looking for new places to apply, and stop checking my e-mail like a crazy person...

Just for the net couple of days anyway :)

Happy Holidays!

The End of One Count Down and the Beginning of Another.

So it's finally over. 17 long years of formal education have finally ceased... for now anyway. we shall see if I return.

Graduated on Friday the 9th. It wasn't very exciting. Well at least not until I walked across the stage. Everything prior to that was almost unreal. It didn't feel like graduation even though I was sitting there with 1000 other students dressed in cap and gown, ready to take on the world. But then, the second I stepped on that stage, it was like everything else just disappeared. nothing existed except for me and that stage in my one moment of realization; I was graduating college. It was amazing and totally worth the entire two hours of boring-ness that I had to sit through.

And now, here I stand, a college graduate -- jobless and broke...

Now I just have to decide, do I want to stay in Tampa where I will probably have to continue busting my butt as a waitress while I hope to find work. Or do I want to try and find a job wherever I can? ... Undecided.

For now, I'll just hope for the best... Welcome to real life.

College Graduate.

I'm done. It's official. I finished my last class on Monday and received my passing grade of an A- yesterday. Now all that's left to do is walk, which I will be doing on Friday, one week from today at 9 o'clock in the morning.
I'm unbelievable excited :D

I'm looking forward to taking most of the month of December as a vacation. Then, in January, the job hunt begins :)

Until then, I collected my last check from the spa today, and I will be picking up shifts like crazy at beef's until the 8th.

Photo shoot on Sunday :) Yay.

I Think Notorious BIG Had it Wrong. No Mo Money, Way Mo Problems

Why does being in college have to be the equivalent of being poor? It sucks. I maybe should have considered my bills before I quite the job that served as my main source of income... Yeah.

Well I can at least afford my bills with what I have and what I'll be making before the winter holiday. I just can't spend on anything else... That's like the hardest thing ever. Especially considering that there are so many things I need, like, for instance, a new cord for my laptop. The old one decided to poop out on me and now my computer wont work because it can't charge. Sighs. A life with no computer is no life at all. Is that sad?
I guess I'll have to survive the next month and a half by using other peoples computers every chance I get.

Jobs...
I guess the Job I interviewed with is a no go. I've still heard nothing, and I was supposedly going to receive an e-mail last week regardless as to whether I got the position or not. Oh well. I'll just keep applying.
I did see an ad in the Oracle for an even more perfect job though. The fact that there is a job in my field available in Tampa is amazing in itself. So I applied. Currently, I am anxiously awaiting their reply.
Aside from this, I have also applied for an internship in the publications department with the Disney Corporation :D Wouldn't that be a fabulous gig to get? For me at least, hah! It would be a fantastic dream come true. Sadly, it's all the way in California. How would I survive by my self in that big state of desperate people? It wouldn't be easy.
But I'll still hope for good news from them as well.

Aside from all this, I am trying to enjoy my last few weeks as a college student.

I fear the day when I'll be saying, "Back when I was in college..."

Ready, Set, Graduate!

The count down begins...

A month from tomorrow I will be a college graduate. I can hardly believe it!
I feel like I need to start planning things, like, I already quit one job, now I need to get a real job lined up. I'm still waiting to hear back from the job I interviewed with last week. They told me I'd receive and e-mail this week regardless of whether I got the job or not. Nothing yet.
But that's not it. I need to make plans for celebrating. A Graduation party maybe? Some graduation trips?
I also need to save money like crazy! I know money is going to be tight once one of my jobs is gone. I guess that  means I also have to start planning on getting more hours at my other job. Yuck.
I also need to register for my graduation. It's funny, because that's something I keep talking about, but I haven't actually done it yet. And I have to figure out how to get a cap and gown... Maybe I should make an appointment with my adviser.

Ready or not, here it comes... But I am ready. Mentally anyway. For now.

We'll see how ready I am when it's all actually here.

Out With the Old and in With the New. So They Say.

So I finally caved and quit one of my jobs...

Not beefs. Sometimes I think I'll never get out of there.
I quit the Spa. It was just too much, and I'm really not very happy working there. I mean, I really like all the people I work with (excluding only a few...) but, It's just not the job for me, and apparently I'm not the only one who thinks so. Therefore, I quit.
... I'll still be there through November though. Maybe.

But the good news is I have a Job interview!!! Tomorrow!! And I'm so excited because it's for a job that's actually (more or less) in my field!!! :D I'm stoked and I have really high hopes for this interview tomorrow.
Getting an interview is hard enough, so the fact that this place actually even contacted me is AMAZING!
I'm hoping for the best possible outcome from this mess. I quit one job and hopefully I'll gain another. A better one. One that's more suited for me.
That would be ideal.

Wish me luck!